Tired and Frustrated

Why is nighttime the worst for me? The events of the day have passed, leaving me tired, hurting for my baby, frustrated that there has been no progress, missing my son and husband, and emotionally vulnerable...and thus whiny. I am going to turn in soon after battling with Callie to get her to sleep. Perhaps some sleep will provide more clarity. I feel as though I am running on autopilot. I have stopped trying to understand why and what is happening. Please Jesus come, clear my mind so that I can sleep. Help my baby. Be with my family. We love you.