Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Summer and the kids came over in the morning. It was nice for all of us. I realize we hadn't had a play date with anyone in awhile and it was a good chance to use Summer as a sounding board for some of my deeper thoughts. Noah really enjoyed playing with the girls and having kiddos around his age to interact with. I'm pretty sure he has a crush on Isabell. :-)
After they left, I put Noah down for his nap, and finished my book. Although this book was fictional, it addressed a lot of the issues that I am currently facing. So, afterwards I was emotional and crying...a good time to spend time with the Lord...so that's what I did. I just confessed to God all the areas that I thought were holding me back...and just sat there soaking in the quiet. I then picked up Power Healing...a book I am getting ready to read with a friend. I started reading it and was blown away by the impact it was having on me. It is written by the pastor who started the Vineyard Church. His writing was so powerful because in his stories he had the same questions and feelings that I have been having. I want to see people healed of stuff. He prayed for 10 months unsuccessfully for people...finally when he gave up and became broken about it...God was able to use him. I kind of feel as though that's where I am at. I am in the process of learning to submit to God. My pride gets in the way of allowing God to do whatever he wants to do. The more I read, the more I feel I am gaining some understanding of my situation and the character of God. As much as I wish this were a quick fix...I have a feeling its going to be more of a journey in rediscovering God and learning more about his character and his love for people. Perhaps along the way, my questions will be answered and I can experience God in a really incredible way.
Moving along....When Dave and Noah woke up from their naps, we all headed to the park and played for awhile. It was such a beautiful day. We all had a blast just being outdoors and getting some fresh air.
Now, I am gearing up for our lifegroup party tonight. I am super excited to party with our friends. It should be a lot of fun.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Then there is the mama in me. Noah sleeping in the same room is hard! He is congested and snored and had a couple of coughing fits in the middle of the night. Poor squirt...but I was up every time. I knew when he started stirring, which was about 30 minutes before he actually got up...and I just laid in bed waiting.
We put cartoons on this morning to buy us a little extra snooze time (since he woke up at 6am). I laid in bed a little longer, but could still hear everything. Dave, fortunately was able to sleep an extra 2 hours, which I'm sure he needed after the week he has had.
Now, we're just sitting, relaxing in the hotel room...until the shower festivities start.
Friday, October 26, 2007
We just finished at IKEA. We managed to come home with only a few more things than what we had planned...which for an IKEA trip, is pretty impressive. Unfortunately, they didn't have the bookshelf I wanted in the beech (maple) color...Instead, Noah got birch. Someone told Dave that mixed woods are in now. I'm not sure if that's true or not, or if he was just using it to appease me. The problem is they said that they carried it, but were out of stock and didn't expect any in for 4-6 weeks. We need a solution to Noah's room sooner than that...and we get to IKEA like once or twice a year...not often. So, birch it is. I'm sure it will look fine.
Soon, we are going to check out the pool and allow Noah to expel some energy after sitting in the car and sitting in a seat at IKEA. He has really enjoyed exploring the room and the new scenery...me too kiddo...me too. :-)
We're packing up and heading out. Hopefully we'll get everything we need to finish off Noah's big boy room. :-)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Hopefully, he'll get home at a reasonable hour and can get some much needed rest. There are fresh sheets on the bed for him to fall into...and maybe I won't even hit him if he snores. :-)
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
- My dad had a stroke many years ago. Because my grandma is having a series of things with her brain go wrong (and is getting testing) it reminded me of my dad's experience. I called him and we got to talking about the day that he had his stroke. What I didn't realize then was the gravity of his situation. According to the doctors, where it was and how it occurred should have killed him immediately. However, he has no significant lasting effects at all. No paralysis, no vision loss, no death. In talking with him yesterday, I was struck by the miracle that it was and that my dad is still here with me today. He was able to walk me down the aisle and has been able to see his grandchildren. Thanks God for saving my dad.
- Friends in our lifegroup relayed a story about going on vacation and before leaving, receiving an unexpected $900 check from his boss! It get's better. When they got back, he found out that his boss had paid him for a full 40 hours despite the fact that he had been on vacation for all but one day of that week. God is SO cool.
- I have a baby that is kicking me in the stomach. :-) The miracle of new life is one that should never be overlooked.
- Smaller ones are the life lessons that people are learning. I was talking to my friend Halie, and we had a great discussion about all that God is teaching us right now in our lives and how, often, in our weaknesses...God can do the most good. I also had a similar God-filled conversation with my friend Melinda. Being able to have those conversations are testimony to God's goodness.
- My sister's purse was stolen the other day...and it was found completely recovered...nothing missing (she had already cancelled her credit cards, which was wise, but still...).
I'm sure I can keep adding on....but this is what God has revealed of Himself this week. Looking back at the song we sang on Sunday, "I called....you answered"...I have a different response to that now. God DID answer and He is faithful even to assure our niggling doubts.
Lord, you didn't have to prove yourself to me...but you did. Thank you for reminding me of who you are and how much you really DO in our lives. Forgive my unbelief. Help me to always keep my eyes open to see how you are moving.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I feel like Peter right now. I have seen Jesus do incredible things, both in my life and in the lives of others. I trusted him enough to step out on the water...only now I feel myself sinking for not having enough faith. My only encouragement is that this is only one of Peter's indiscretions, and yet God used him in incredible ways throughout the bible. Perhaps, even this story is to provide hope for those whose faith is flagging. Reach out your hand to trust in Jesus again.
I'm not sure why I feel this way right now, only that I do...and I don't like it. I want to have the faith that can move mountains, that can believe anything is possible. In church on Sunday, we sang a song that went, "I called, you answered...you rescued me." I remember thinking, what about the times he didn't? Lately, I have felt that I have prayed with trepidation about the big things in life. "God, please don't let this _________ happen to my friend." but in my heart, I am so afraid that its just going to happen anyway...and lately...it has. So, is my lack of faith getting in the way, or am I just not really seeing what God is doing? I understand in my head, that God's will is perfect and that there is a reason for everything...even the bad. I just can't seem to make my heart catch up to that reasoning.
So here I am...I still love Jesus. I still know that God can do anything...I just don't always know if He will. I am still a follower, but a broken and confused one. Perhaps I think too much about it. The children at church trust Jesus completely for their every need, their every boo-boo. They have child-like faith. When in my walk, did I lose the innocence of a child and become a jaded adult?
Lord, Help me find the faith of my youth. I still love you God, despite my confusion. Restore my faith in You Jesus. Help me to remember why I fell in love with You in the first place. You are worth the struggle to come to terms with this. Thank you for using Peter and his walk to teach me. Thank you for giving me hope that despite where I am at now, You still have a plan for my life.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Dave and Noah took off mid-afternoon for some errand running and boy time. I NEVER mind this. They came home with Noah carrying a big bouquet of flowers over to me. It was the cutest thing to see him waddle while trying to carry them. I have great men in my life.
After Mandy left, we ate the pot roast that had been simmering all day...May I just say that I love crock pots. I am tempted to do an entire week of crock pot cooking, just because. You just throw whatever in there and leave it all day...and then magically at 6pm you have dinner. :-)
It was family night tonight as we went and played at the pool at Faith Baptist. We found a (swim) life jacket for Noah at a garage sale...and it completely liberated him. He has always been a water bug, but now he swam "on his own" a little bit and was in hog heaven...whatever that phrase really means. Personally, I am not sure that a hog heaven is really that great...A place where no pigs are slaughtered? I digress.
Anyway, Noah had a great time...and hopefully we have worn him out enough to get some really good sleep. I am heading to the chiropractor tomorrow because my sciatica is really acting up. Yes, I realize I sound like an old women...but its the pregnancy talking. The darn kid is jumping on my sciatic nerve and making my entire left leg and hip hurt...A LOT. My chiropractor is like my crack dealer...he gives me my "fix" and I always feel much better.
P.S.- As we were leaving Faith, we ran into Jonelly who was heading in for her guitar lesson. Noah got to give her a kiss and we got to say hi.
Alright, I'm off to go spend a few minutes with my kiddo before bed time and then to watch Dave watch the Colt's game. :-)
Friday, October 19, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
After he finally decided to be awake, we stopped by Starbucks and said "hi" to our friend Becky, then did some shopping at Target. Then I headed off (sans Noah) for my lunch date with my childhood bestfriend Jen. We were best friends in the second grade and somehow we have now both landed in Lafayette for at least the time being (she is a grad student). We had Olive Garden...my favorite place to eat. So, now I am loaded to the gills with soup and breadsticks, have come home and the boys are gone. I'm not really sure where they are, but I hope they're having fun. :-)
The Wellner's are coming over for dinner tonight and Dave is making pulled pork. It turned out really well the last time he made it so we are hoping for a repeat performance.
So, here's to a beautiful day outside and a well rested mommy. :-)
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Last night, we had Abby and Rocky over for dinner. Noah, first of all fell out of the bathtub and has a nice shiner over his right eye (his left eye is already a little black from heaven's knows what he banged into). He looks like a boxer who was on the bad end of a fight. He is so much faster than I am these days in getting into trouble, I just feel like the clean-up crew...and he is CLIMBING everything.
We put him to bed and turned on the monitor, but didn't hear anything. Well, when Abby and Rocky left, I went into check on him as usual. I couldn't get the door open because there was something blocking it...yep, that would be my son, who was sleeping soundly at the base of the door. He didn't even stir as I transferred him up to his own bed. Silly kid.
What's more is that at 5am this morning, I swore I heard him tapping on the door. So I got up, went in there to see and he was still laying in bed. He of course woke up when I went in there though. I tucked him in, covered him and left. A few minutes later, I swore again that he was now awake because I had just been in there. I go BACK in...and again...he is sound asleep. I have become a paranoid freak...and one that is not getting enough sleep.
Dave thinks we should shut the door all the way, and also turn off the monitor (my downfall because I wake up to the slightest stirring). Noah is good enough that he will play with toys or cry out if he really wants out of his room. I am so tired after doing this for a few weeks, I am ready to say yes to about anything. I can't blame anyone but myself, but something has to give.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
In the evening, Dave headed back off to work and I had some ladies from my lifegroup come over and hang out. Sheena, Kelsey, and Jonell and I watched a movie and chatted. They also entertained my son (who I'm sure gets bored with me on a day-in-day-out basis). He was a little ham when they were here...giving kisses and playing with them. It was really low-key, but nice.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
We then headed to Summer's and all caravaned over to Champaign to go to Curtis Orchard, which is a really neat pumpkin patch. It was nice to chat with Summer on the way there and back...we don't often get a lot of time to really chat without reprimanding kids or having to hang up due to a kid crisis...so it was nice. Curtis Orchard was a lot of fun, albeit hotter than we anticipated. Summer, Becky, Haley Shurr, and Sarah R. all went (with children of course). We met up with Melinda for a (brief) minute, but I at least got to see her and hug her...although that almost made it worse since we haven't seen each other in 2 months and a few crazy minutes seemed to mock us...but oh well.
We drove back and all took a little nap, then Dave took us to the Olive Garden for dinner and we came home to a cookie cake (my favorite). It was, all in all, a very nice day.
Thanks to all who sent birthday cards and called to wish Happy Birthday...it honestly meant a lot to me. I have not had real mail in a long time (bills, credit card offers, and magazines...yes, fun mail...no) So, it was a lot of fun to get birthday mail. :-) They are all displayed with honor on my mantel.
So, here's to another year. Cheers!
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Our ultrasound is scheduled for Oct. 31...so hopefully we will find out if its a little girl or boy on that day. I'm really excited! If nothing else, it will be great to see the baby moving around in there. It is undoubtedly one of my favorite moments of being pregnant.
So that's what's new on our end.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Thank you God for what you are doing. Keep letting lives be changed. Let us all grow deeper with you as we build relationships with one another. You are amazing Lord and I love you.